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Sunday, January 30, 2011

The bookkk-

((Summer obsession. Sits on thee night stand every night.. He's Just Not That Into You.
--> I think he's into me.. but you gotta make sure you are right. so please use the book. hahah :) ))

Okay, so maybe it's just me.. But finding what seems to be the right man in college,  life isn't always the easiest thing in the world. Solely basing your decision on looks,, let me tell you MISTAKE. I don't think in my life I have ever dated someone that wasn't in my eyes incredibly sexy. As I grow and learn I have realized that personality and desire are the things that you are going to want to spend eternity with. Right?

Excuses... Don't put up with them!

He's Just Not That Into You-- Your Daily Wake Up Call.. States the concept perfectly!
15. I know that guy you're dating. He is a man made up entirely of your excuses.. and the minute you stop making excuses for him, he will completely disappear.
We would classify this with a time waster right? Correct.
8. Wasting time with the wrong person is  just time wasted. And when you do move on and find your right person, believe me, you are not going to wish you had gotten to spend more time with Stinky the Time-Waster or Freddy Can't Remember-to-Call....
Am I right, okay the book is right. But seriously put thought into it!

This is no real reflection of my life. I am happy. Satisfied. Stretched across the board, but keeping it real... giving my best everyday and am holding nothing back. 
If you are in love, be in love... but make sure you are on the right page. There is someone out there for you.. and probably more then one person that you are compatible with. Don't let a man dictate your life.
You need to love, cherish, and respect yourself... and the right man will be willing to give you more then you can give yourself.

<3 Love Alwayss

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Missing you.

When I want to break down and freak out, give up and call it a day, call it a week.. I remember struggles develop strength. Going through hardship for the last nine and months and making the choice to not to surrender that is true strength. Dealing with loss as well as everyday struggles would push most people over the edge.. .. I am a strong, beautiful, amazing, loving, smart, successful, and a 20 year old gem. I don't there there are too many people in the world that can handle with the strength and dignity the things I have overcome.


I will forever cherish each relationship that I have started and established, I want to leave a name that people will remember, sort of like Mother Teresa. I know I have a long way to go.. but one day I will have that strength and love to be so kind and sympathetic as she.


As I approach each day, I am more positive, more grateful, and have so much more love to give. I am so grateful for my family that has chose to stick it out on earth with me. I am happy and cherish the people that have come and go from my life.


Although I am still unsure why everything happened the way it did. Look at me now, I am so much stronger and have gone through something most people in this world will ever have to face, and for that I am strong and independent. Anyone can give up, but when you hang on when giving up is what is expected from you.. that is STRENGTH.


Blessed. That is the best way to describe my life. I have a Guardian Angel that looks over me each day. Someone that gave me the courage and strength to be the best I can be each and every day. It might only be 20 %.. but its me for now.


I have to thank my family, my mother, the strongest best person to ever walk the earth. A true saint. When the world falls a part she is the first person to lend a hand and pick me back up. My big most amazing brother Damen.. My inspiration.. and my three little brothers. All of them are so much stronger then me.. and I look up to each of them. We are all there for each other... and share a special bond that I promise no one will ever experience with their brothers.


Blessed. Loved. and STRONG.


<3 Always.

Sunday, January 23, 2011

Cloud nine..

The bachelor is impressive, he claims to be on "cloud nine" with multiple women. As I reflect on my life I am so unable to give that bond to more then one man. I believe you can fall in and out of love, and I know there are things that keep you from being with someone that you thought you were in deep liking with.. How is it possible for a man to be that "into" so many girls. 

I can relate,, and for this would be a horrible contestant to win Brad's heart. If you are getting up every day giving the man that you think is the most perfect man on earth your all, and you know that he isn't giving you his. What makes these women not want to give up? 

Love is not a game. Its reality. That is someone that you are going to spend the rest of your life with. Do you really want him to be able to take his pick like that. To me, it makes me feel less of a woman.

Its so important for women to know their worth. Determine what you want in a man and until he meets what you are looking for, don't settle for less. 

"If he thinks your worth it.. he won't give up, if he gives up.. he's not worthy"

I know I am only 20 years old, but one day I want to feel that bond, and when you meet that person and get to know them you just know they are the one for you. I want to feel the love that my Dad claims he found. And every happy couple out there.

don't pretend to know what love is for everyone, but I can tell you what it is for me; love is knowing all about someone, and still wanting to be with them more than any person, love is trusting them enough to tell them everything about yourself, including the things you might be ashamed of, love is feeling comfortable and safe with someone, but still getting weak in the knees when they walk into the room and smile at you.
-daniel gary wilkins 4/15/2010

Don't search. It'll find you! 
<3 always

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Control what youuu can.

Daddy left me with some great advice-- control what you can

Think about everything you have complete control over: your actions, your mood, your outfit, your attitude, your focus, what you consume..

Like most other things in life its easier said then done. I often find myself worrying about something that no matter how hard I try to understand why something is the way it is, or trying to fix it... I can't. In order for a person to change they have to want to be different, so let me ask... would this mean nagging them, asking a million times the same thing make a difference? Unless they have no spine the likely-hood of that working is a slim to none chance.

In reality I don't know what I want, and that in fact is something I have complete control over. I know I want happiness, but us humans are "pleasure maximizers" so that is a given for all of us. Like always I am going to put my faith in God and let him help me figure out what is best for me. 

Everything that you can control, you should. You should be the one that determines your life and the path that you want to take.

<3 Love Always