God is Good

Stole the idea from someone else's blog... it's great. God is good.

I am not confident

I don’t even like myself

I am such a sinner

I am so mean and bossy

I can be selfish and arrogant

At times I am too aggressive

Other times I have attitude

I am drama

I am focused on the bad things and find it hard to see the good 

I mess up relationships

I am not where I want to be in life goals or in Christ

Fortunately I am redeemed

Fortunately I am saved by grace through faith in Jesus Christ

Who is working on me, changing me, molding me

Fortunately this life is not about me

Fortunately I am attempting to become more Christ-like everyday

Thankfully God is in ultimate control and not me

Today is a new day, a new chance to get right with God

To get on board with His agenda and priorities and plan for my life!

Often time I try to control everything! First I must take my Dad's advice. Control what you can. Second I need to realize that God has a plan for me and need to just roll with the punches. Allow myself to feel.

Loveee

Sick to my stomach. I am unable to express the true feelings. They are so deep, so real... but almost fake because they go without notice. Insecurities make me hide them, rejection is a true fear. Maybe not so much even rejection, more just the vulnerablability of allowing things to happen that shouldn't.
Its never been so hard, which makes me think its never been real. Or maybe I'm just a fool...

I hope for a happy ending, or wish there never has a happy beginning.

Not so Happy F-day

Heavens tears poured today... I know he feels the pain I feel, that no one can fathom. I know he cares about me and loves me more then his actions showed. 
I am grateful for the friends that reached out to me... and the amazing mom that does both now.


This day is crummy. Period.