Life seems to be a little bit harder then normal. While everyone around me is able to live a normal life. I feel like I have to do everything to try to be "normal" be the way I was before things feel through.
It's the people that I choose to surround myself with that keep me from going under. It has been 11 months since my daddy left and I cant even being to explain how hard, even 11 months later, things are.
Reality is something most days I don't want to face. I want to be able to pick up my phone and have my dad on the other line. When people say they wish there was a
phone to heaven that is no joke. It hurts.
Luckily I have such amazing people in my life.
Mainly my family. They are so strong for me and are a constant reminder that no matter what we have each other.
Having the
best mother on earth sure does make things easier. She is an angel. Her words are so comforting, and even though this isn't her issue she does ANYTHING and EVERYTHING possible to take a little pressure off.
I so
proud of all of my
brothers and the choices that they make everyday to be the
best people they can be, for chasing their dreams and making things happen! I am also so proud of myself. I've pushed through when I was expected to fail, and it would have been acceptable...
Loosing someone you love is unreal. Loosing THE BEST DAD on EARTH.. that is a life crusher. It'll get you. My wish is that one day I will be able to
celebrate his life, instead of
dwelling on the choice that he made.
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