God Romance

God please romance me.
Although it's not the hardest thing I've faced it still hurts. In the moment of pain, I'll remain silent. I'll let God in my life, he has my plan, and he runs me. I'm letting you take over God.  Please fill my heart and give me strength. I NEED you God.

Checkyouself before it recksyou!

When is Enough really Enough? I don't know when I will break, when I will crumble, when I wont physically, mentally, emotionally be able to take the beating. This highs are high, I feel indestructible. The lows are low, I gasp for air. I want neutral. I'm afraid I want to make someone what it isn't. I want more for myself. Whether it's here or elsewhere I am making it happen. Respect me, love me, cherish me....When you are the best you can get the best. Be the best...
This is a personal reality check.

repeat

"Get skinny" playlist on repeat.

I want to be better for me. I want my body to feel better, I want to look better, I what to be comfortable and confident in my own skin. Standing naked I want to not pinch or pull, not wish or hope. I need to look at myself with respect, with confidence, without placing judgement. 

Lacking confidence is not sexy... gotta get back the umphhh

Its more then a playlist. The truth is I feel so hurt, so lost, so out of good logical words. I have been betrayed. I have chosen to let my confidence go, chosen to let someone else determine my value.

I want strength--that no matter who chooses to belittle me, hurt me, not see me for my true worth to let them pass from my life. Without respecting yourself you cant expect someone else to respect you.